Monthly Archives: August 2012

got a light

Had a dream last night and I have been feeling it hump my brain all day. I wonder if we are born as a little teacup candle. We have a little light, given by God, as a pilot light for … Continue reading

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RECIEVE

The newborn in the NICU will shudder with loud voices, but doesn’t flinch with the alarms going off in the crib next to them. The infant will focus in on the crumb lost in the shag carpet, but blocks out … Continue reading

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church is not a building

It was Sunday. I really needed to see God through other people today. I needed to connect. I needed to feel the light shining through. I needed to feel the warmth of fellow Christ followers, of fellow strugglers. I woke … Continue reading

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30 minutes

I rode my bike. I was on a solo mission. I was fast, my lines were perfect. I never stopped pedalling. I went up and down. I turned in the sand. I thought of nothing else but biking. I was … Continue reading

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this is…

Tell me again. How often I have screamed that in my head and my heart? Tell me again that you love me. Tell me again that it will be alright. Tell me again that the pain will go away. Tell … Continue reading

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to the pain…

  The fighters had met before. The are often at odds. They know they need each other, but just cant seem to agree on much. One fighter is clad in all gray. He is older and has wrinkles that seem … Continue reading

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are you?

Dang it, crying AGAIN! I am not good at emotions. For a long time, I hid from them. I retreated to my basement (physically and metaphorically) and escaped from having to feel anything. There was a moment in my life … Continue reading

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excuse me, spit or sweat?

I was remembering a time in college. I was at KU for my first year and went to a Frat party. I never pledged, never really wanted to, and maybe this story is why. I walked the street of the … Continue reading

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Moral Kiosk

Thats it, isn’t it? It seems you are going along in life, trying to do the right thing, and you stumble upon the moral kiosk. It has pretty displays, and screams out, “Buy me, Buy me!” The tantilizing colors, the … Continue reading

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red badge of courage

I went biking yesterday. It was not a stroll, nor lolligagging. I had some frustrations going on and needed to take it out on my legs and lungs. I am pretty effective at doing that. It was 93 degrees, and … Continue reading

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